We went to pick Noah up from his class on Sunday morning. And learned that he had an Owie. I thought to myself oh this is the 2nd one this week. He must be clumsy like Momma. But then we realized that Noah had been bitten. Look at this thing!!!!
Honestly this was hard for me to hear, I kept it together till we got home and 3 hours later it still looked bad. My Momma claws came out. I began get angry. I know this is hard to believe that I was feisty for my child (enter sarcasm here). He kept picking up the paper that told us "A friend bit him." and would place it on his arm. Saying "All better."
Why was it so hard for me to forgive what happened to my child then??? I mean if it happened to me, no big deal but to my Noah. I was getting bitter I could feel it. Do I not remember:
Ephesians 4:31-32 ESV
Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.
Matthew 6:14-15 ESV
For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
or
Romans 5:8 ESV
But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Why did I feel so inept to forgive now??? I talked to Drew about it and prayed that God would help me want to forgive. And I can say that I have now forgiven but feel this is something I will have to fight against for a long time. Not placing my children as idols to me.
Here is another way my Noah helps sanctify me, and grow my patience. We went shopping and when I came in from the car with the last of my load. Noah had broken almost all of the eggs. This little face of "Uh oh I am trouble." only came after Momma yet again lost my cool and was not gentle when I should have been. Being a stay at home wife/mom is more and more a means to and end in refining me to be obedient to Christ. There are so many challenges to raise these young men to love My Savior and I am determined to succeed.
This is just a funny pic of Noah trying on Daddy's shorts. He looks like an ad for Weight Watchers, "And I lost this much." "10 whole sized dropped."